Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Dealing With a Death of a Parent
I had minimal feelings of regrets. Of course I wish I had another chance to tell my mom I loved her, but her death affected me in different ways. I was young when she died and her death was sudden. She was only 33 and healthy. When she died I lost my sense of self-worth, self pride and self respect. I became afraid of losing people, instead of pulling them closer like Julie discussed, I would push everyone away. I did not want to be loved or love anyone for fear of losing them. I did this for years and now I am starting to realize behaving in this way will not soften the blow when death does come. This is not living. I am slowly rebuilding some important relationships. I still struggle with saying I love you. However actions speak louder than words and I show my love more than I ever did.
Posted by Holly at 2:08 PM