Wednesday, April 21, 2010

My Mom's Birthday

Hey Ladies!

It's been awhile. Today I'm celebrating my mom's birthday. She would have been 58 today, & would still be young. She has been gone for 27 years. I type that because I can do the math, but to actually believe that is possible is a whole other thing. I really don't believe it, it just doesn't seem possible. I've been going through some hard times lately, and I wish she was here with me. I always wish she was here with me.

I got married last summer, and I really missed her then too. Her younger sister came from Louisiana for the wedding. She is a writer and I asked her if she would read something at the wedding. She didn't want to at first, because she gets nervous speaking. But she called me a week later & said that my mom inspired her to do it. And at our wedding, she read the words that she said came through her from my mom. It was beautiful (and I bawled!).

Anyway, today I am thinking about my mom & all the birthdays & celebrations & regular days we haven't got to spend together. I feel cheated. But I'm trying to celebrate her life & not think about her death.

Happy Birthday to You, Jane Ellen! You are missed every day.